I need direction

I will be returning to school in the fall and I am having some reluctancy as to which career I want to pursue. I have always had an interest in pharmacy, but had become a nurse instead. Now I am going back in hopes of becoming A CRNA. The closer I become the more nervous I get and second guess myself and my decisions. I guess I feel anesthesia is definetly more stressful than pharmacy, yet more fulfilling and exciting. Do I want excitement, along with stress, or relaxation and boredom? I imagine CRNAs salaries are higher, but isn't the pay comparable. Do you feel with all the responsibilitiy, that you are compensated accordingly. It is not all about the money to me, as I want to retire doing something I enjoy, that fulfills me. But I don't want to work under constant stress. I have a growing family, and I want to come home in one piece, if you know what I mean. I plan on looking into shadowing both professionals, but advice from you guys would greatly be appreciated, thank you.