Has anyone out there NOT been accepted to CRNA school despite their repeated best... - page 3
efforts? My "plan" as I have stated before is to apply (along with my wife) to about ten to fifteen schools per year (the ones with the lowest admission standards that I can ascertain). Has anyone... Read More
Nov 11, '02O.K. Roland, philosophical debate aside, I have this to say to you. Do whatever you can to get over your shyness, join toastmasters, go to a therapist, place yourself in uncomfortable situations and make yourself speak over and over again.
I say this because I have known people who dropped out of nurse anesthesia programs because they were shy, they could not deal with the stress of clinical rotations. They felt as if they were under a microscope, and if you are shy that is the worst place to be.
You pointed out your shyness as a shortcoming you know it is an issue, fix it now it will be one less thing to worry about later.
Nov 12, '02about being self concious concerning my hair and weight than it is innate shyness. I used to be someone who LOVED speech in highschool. My wife and I were talking about this very subject the other night and she said that were it not for my hair and weight that I would be so vane, and egotistical that she couldn't stand to live with me. Now I disagree with that characterization of course, but there might be more than a nugget of truth within her perspective. I remember an old karate movie that I saw maybe twenty years ago (Bruce Lee's Enter the Dragon perhaps?). In it the hero savagely breaks the nose of his beautiful son for no reason that I could discern. When asked about his actions he simply replied "now he won't grow up arrogent". Maybe, God or fate "broke my nose" in a sense for my own good.
Perhaps rather than Paxil, what I need is some really intense systematic desensitization. Maybe I need to have people call me a bunch of really hurtful names to my face. Then, I can in essence say to myself "that's the way it is so you're just going to have to accept it and get over it and focus on being the best nurse you can be." Instead, I've gone to great lengths to avoid even the slightest hint of a negative reaction (including avoiding eye contact and ignoring body language) towards my situation. When, I see someone on campus who is in a wheel chair I think to myself "how can I complain, imagine what feelings THEY must repress about being viewed as abnormal."Last edit by Roland on Nov 12, '02
Nov 12, '02I may be wrong, but it seems to me that you are now dealing with adults rather than children. I do not think there are very many adults who call people names, or think of deragotory names upon meeting someone.
It sounds to me like your desensitization should be communicating with enough people to realize that you are not going to be humiliated. Making sure that the people you choose are adults and not children posing as adults.
Nov 12, '02I'm sure you can think of MANY adults who fall into the "child" catagory, at least a fair percentage of the time. Also, there is the fact that it seems like everyone in my class is a skinny "model" looking girl (ever notice how young people seem more beautiful the older you get, much more so than when you were their age). However, I will say that everyone in my class IS very nice. Quite frankly I'm more concerned about flack from guys than women. It seems we retain much more of our "inner child" even into relatively old age (don't mean to be sexist just my observation).
Nov 12, '02Roland, lighten up man. You are expending great energy ruminating over something you have no control over. This is all in your head.
Nov 12, '02You could think of it a different way. Ok, Roland. You have gained weight; "Wow, you gained some poundage, dude". That's pretty much the worst of it. And its over. As for the hair, I'm not sure what plugs look like, but, maybe discuss it with someone who does know, and try shaving it off. Go for it. What the hell. You'll feel a bit naked for awhile, but it may be a giant relief.
Ok, enough said on this subject!
Lets move on!
Nov 13, '02Roland, toastmasters is a great idea. When I was in undergrad and had to do a lot of presentations....I joined Toastmasters...works well. Have you thought about volunteer talks say at Seniors Centers, localetc. They are usually very appreciative and are just glad to have you there.
Nov 13, '02facility for seniors but work more on a one on one basis with the residents. I end up playing alot of checkers which if lots of fun but does little for my speaking abilities. Old people and kids are the best people in the world to be around in my opinion.