CRNA Confusion

I had been told at an early age that I wasn't good in math and science and that I would never make a good nurse.

I am having somewhat of a problem deciding what I want to do. Last year, I decided that I would pursue a nursing career. I had been told at an early age that I wasn't good in math and science and that I would never make a good nurse. Also, it was mentioned that becoming a nurse was ridiculous. You made the big money when you became a doctor. (the person that told me this is ALL about money) That would be why I started this so late in my life. I did it to myself though. I should have had enough faith in myself.

Anyway...

So ever since I started this endeavor, I set my sights on becoming a CRNA. Only until recently did I start to question this decision.

I like the field of Anesthesia, but now I'm wondering if I should become a doctor and specialize in Anesthesia. I don't know if I want to deal with the "turf wars" between doc's and CRNA's. And maybe it's my own uneducated thought process, but in my head I see doc's always feeling this way about CRNA's.

What I'm wondering is if anyone that is pursuing this field ever feels this way? Should I or shouldn't I get my MD? I know the sacrifice involved in both fields. Part of me says, "You know? You are going to work so hard, why not stick it out a little bit longer. You'll have the authority and the financial aspect of it is just a bonus."

Another part of me feels like I can't do it. Like there's no way that I could ever be a doctor. I know it stems from low self-esteem. If I had the confidence in myself to be a nurse, then I can be a doctor. It's just a whole new ballpark. Ya know?

I don't want to start any conflicts with this post. This isn't a debate about how CRNA's are/are not as good as an MDA. This is about personal choice, and feelings concerning choices you've made. I have been wrestling with this for awhile now, and I thought I would ask others who may have thought the same thing.

Thanks!
Kara

I guess I didn't make it clear enough. I was told by a family member that I was no good in math and that I'd never make it in the medical field. Anything is possible with hard work, and that's where I am today. I've made A's in all of my math courses, and I'm statistics now. Calculus is next on my list.

I haven't gone to CRNA school yet, but I've been told by more than one person that Calculus is almost a must have to understand the concepts of Anesthesia.

As a matter of fact, the only times that I have thought about X approaching infinity is when X is the amount of time it takes an intern close an incision.

X approaching infinity is when X is the amount of time it takes an intern close an incision.