I am getting so nervous about starting anesthesia school this fall. I mean, first there's the money thing, or more accurately, the lack of money thing. Don't get me wrong. I've been saving up money, and am working tons and tons of OT this summer to save up even more, so I know we (me, my DH, and our four children) will be okay, but its a little bit of an uncomfortable feeling to know that we may be surviving on cold cuts and PB&J until school is over. Of course, I get to feeling freaked about that and then I see some poor grungy guy begging on the street near the inner city hospital where I work and I realize how petty I am being because I'm worried I won't be able to buy the new jeans or shoes I really adored and this guy can't afford food or a decent place to sleep at night. Then I realize I am so lucky that not only do my husband and I have the ability and skills to earn a decent living, but we also have the opportunity for me to advance my career in such an awesome way.
The really big thing that is making me nervous is that I keep feeling like maybe I'm not really smart enough to do this. Maybe I just slipped by the admissions committee and don't really belong there. I've talked with a couple of people I know who are in their last couple of semesters of anesthesia school and they said they felt some of those same things before they started school. Can anybody else relate to this?
