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May 21, 2009 at 07:51 PM by IMA
I used to work at Progressive Care Unit,step down unit of ICUfor more than 3 yrs. then trasfer to CV-ICU & been working there for 3yrs & 4 months.We have a bully CV surgeon who screams & yell anytime he feels like doing it.I've been a victim of his tantrums,after those incidence I told my charge nurse I don't want to handle any of his patients anymore,I dont mind taking care of difficult patients as long as he don't scream & yell at me in front of everybody,it's too demeaning & demoralize me.Here's my dilemna now,still refusing to be train for fresh CABG,& pt w/ IABP just bec. I dont want to deal w/ that CV-surgeon. I have this ambivalent feeling ,there just few of us now who dont handle fresh heart,it makes me feel inferior w/ the rest,it just blow my egos,am not happy working at that place anymore,feels sad & inadequate most of the time(just bec I still dont handle fresh heart),having this chronic back pain,series of X-rays had been done from cervical to sacral,everything looks okay,just swollen muscles,now on Flexeril 10 mg daily PRN,went to rheumathologist,does series of lab works,did not find anything wrong w/ me.Is it possible I'm just depressed causing this chronic back pain,been flaring -up again lately been sleeping a lot too,working nights (7P-7A).Found opening at neuro-ICU,neuro-surgeons & neurologist were great,just thinking on moving there for good,I'm willing to be trained & willing to handle fresh craniotomy pts. & the like,even difficult cases.I really dont know on what to decide now.I'm comfortable w/ sets of pt I've been handling at CV-ICU,my manager gave me a good evaluation & reassured me not everybody is for fresh heart,but I have this feeling of discontentment, feel insecure w/ the rest just bec I refused to take care of fresh heart(CABG) & worst I dont have peace of mind,this troubles me,aggravating my insomnia,already taking Lunesta 3 mg,just to have a good sleep.Your insight will be highly appreciated.Thanks.
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