So I am a new grad in a cardiac/medical ICU with a very high acuity. We have lots of codes. I am still on orientation for another few weeks. I have been part of 4-5 codes since I've been there only in the last 2 months, but none have been my own patient.
I drive to work deathly afraid every shift that my pt will code. I'm afraid I'll freeze and won't know what to do.
Tell me about your first experience coding your patient. Did your instincts automatically kick in, or did you freak out? Did you feel like there was more you could have done afterwards if the pt didn't make it? I'm afraid I'll feel somewhat responsible if the pt dies, like I didn't react quickly enough.
Of course this is all speculation, because I have no idea how I'll react or feel until it happens!
Would love to hear y'alls stories.