sacrifices

I applied in a hospital here at Alberta last 2006. I have been assessed last January 2007 (5 days, very very challenging I should say!) and now subjected to pass 2 courses BEFORE I can be given a temporary permit to work as a grad nurse, then eventually take the CRNE. By the way? CARNA gave back the results after 7 weeks! Kind of torture don't you think so?

Now, I have a batchmate who applied to Saskatchewan last November 2007 and no questions asked, he was given the grad nurse permit! He is coming on the frist week of April. We graduated from the same premiere university on 2005. He ranked 7th, I ranked 8th in the batch. We both worked as soon as we graduated in a tertiary hospital back home. We basically have the same credentials!

Only difference? THE PROVINCE!!! I really am getting frustrated. Why can't CARNA at give IEN's the chance to take the CRNE at least once? We should be given a choice, not subjected! Each individual is different. I for one believe I can pass your boards here if I really work hard on it and study. I am on a work permit and it is running already. I cannot work since I have to take those courses! I have to get back to my bedside nursing. I miss interacting, I miss caring, I miss the real action, rendering safe, quality and ethical care.

I really think it is not fair. Had I known? I should have passed my requirements to Saskatchewan. No assessments, no other needed courses, etc. Work as a grad nurse and prove that each individual is different. Some can pass the CRNE on their own perseverance, hardwork, experience and of course faith.

What happens if my batchmate passes the CRNE? Then he would have shown CARNA that even without their courses, some IEN's who are hard-working and persevering enough can pass the boards here. (deep breath) I applied well ahead of him and he will be working well ahead before me, I really think it is not fair... (the part that I am still not working)

But yeah, whoever said life IS fair? Sometimes I really get down and discouraged. I know I can do it. If only CARNA will give me a chance... Sacrifices have to be made. It feels like I am back to college. MAJOR difference: I am in a foreign country, without friends, without support groups, very dependent...

I know I have to be strong and focus. I am sure everything has a reason and God has something wonderful in store for me after all these sacrifices and humblling experience. I know I will be a better nurse, if not the best there is on that floor in the hospital I am going to eventually work at.

Thanks for listening. As I have said, the only friend I have now is internet.

God bless you all.