Help!

Hi, Everyone. I hope somebody has some advice for me to help minimize my anxiety. I am currently an LVN in CA. I've been licenced since April 4, 2005. I received a DUI conviction in 2001. I reported the conviction to BON when applying for licensure. Unfortunately, in December 2004, I received a second Dui leaving a christmas party; I wasn't driving, but the keys were in the ignition (irrelevant, I know). Needless to say, I shouldn't drink alcohol, and I haven't for almost two years now. I was ordered to send the information regarding the conviction to the board, which I did last September. It has been nearly ten months since the BON has received the required information. Just the other day( July29, 2006) I recieved a certified package from the BON with an formal accusation and request for dicipline. This is a formal legal document so I have an appoitment with an attorney this evening. My question is: is anyone familar with the hearing or settlement process? This is creating intense anxiety as If they could excile or imprsion me. I love nursing, but people make mistakes; we are only human. I am contemplating letting the board dicipline me without much of a fight; afterall, I'm guilty and paying dearly for it. I have a Business degree from Pepperdine University. I am contemplating letting the BON do what they will (as if I have a choice anyway) with my licence and pursing something meanwhile. We, as nurses have to maintain are mental health, too; and this level of anxiety that I'm currently feeling is not healthy, and, as slow as the BON works, I could find myself in this state for far too long. I have to be reasonable: I can't afford to get tied up in uncertainties involved in the case. The BON has strong, underlying totalitarian characteristics, which makes dealing with them terribly discouraging.