I have already bored Vailgang with this saga, but I thought I would bore the rest of you and see if you have any input or suggestions for me.
This past week was my first week as a pediatric office nurse. I am the only RN, the other two nurses are LPNs. NO ONE knew I was going to be starting Monday morning until I got there Monday morning! Needless to say, I did not get the most warm welcome from the other two nurses. I think they both thought they were in danger of losing their jobs and I can't blame them. The doc had a staff meeting during lunch to explain what I was ultimately going to be doing there - patient education so that he might see more patients and still feel parents were getting the teaching they needed. He is awesome about spending lots of time with parents, but it cuts down on how many kids he can see a day.
The other two nurses have not been there for more than a few months, themselves. The one that basically runs the back has been there since May. Both of these nurses have had pediatric experience before, and office experience before. I have had neither. I did not get much of an orientation, just started bringing patients back, doing vitals, height, s/s, etc. No one helps me much, yet when I do something the wrong way, or don't do something I should have done, both nurses get irritated. One even got irked that I used the wrong damn cleaning solution to wash the floors one evening! The other thing I am having a hard time with is that they get rather moody when they think we are busy. I haven't had a day yet that I have felt was that busy. Mostly we are just standing in the back waiting for patients! I sometimes want to tell them what busy "really" is, and it ain't what they are doing. I am not putting down office nurses, because I know there are practices that are EXTREMELY busy, but this is not one of them. Not yet in my experience, anyway.
I also have been feeling that I am not doing anything of any consequence. While I was in the hospital, I had moments were I felt I was doing good. When a patient's eyes would light up when *I* entered the room, it was a great feeling. Or when I relieved a cancer patient's pain and she was so happy she was dancing in the bed. Those kind of things made me feel I was doing something worthwhile. I have not felt like that in the office. I do realize I am new and take that into consideration. I am also waiting to start working with the doc himself, after I am oriented to the other job. I think I am going to talk to him Monday and ask that I be allowed to start doing other things the week after Thanksgiving. And I am going to suggest a better orientation program as well. A woman in the front office told me she experienced the same thing.
I think I am finished whining now. If anyone has any input about my situation or suggestions to make things easier, I would appreciate it. I have been having nightmares for the past several nights, I think it's anxiety. I have taken a HUGE paycut to take this job and I am already feeling unhappy. Even when I had bad days at the hospital, I was never unhappy there. And I felt welcomed immediately at the hospital too. I realize it is probably not fair to compare, but it is hard not to. Hospital work is all I've ever known, even before I had my RN.
Thanks for listening to me whine,