But my supervisor (LVN I believe) wasn't even there when I left to my knowledge. I looked for her, but several people told me she was gone for the day. How could she be reported for abandonment. Unless she wasn't supposed to leave or something? But she wouldn't do that...she didn't seem like the type. (Like me yesterday.lol) It's not funny, I know, but it's either laugh a little and brush myself off, or cry and feel humiliated and stupid all day today. I had no idea she was leaving, and it was another CNA that I observed during the 3 hrs I was there. There were several LVNs and other CNAs there. It's an Assisted Living facility, and everyone was eating their dinner when I left. Some in their rooms, most in the dining room. None of them need help eating, and the few that did had family members helping them.
I don't know what to do. It was horrible. I won't discuss it all here, but should I wait for someone to call me, since I've sent the letter to the DON? Or, do I go ahead and call today before my shift was supposed to begin (still orientation) even though everyone knows I won't be back? I'm scared to call that supervisor! I'm chicken, yes. But I don't know what to say to her. She doesn't work today, anyway. I'm sure the DON will contact me within the next couple of days. But I'm not going to badmouth the staff, and I didn't in my letter. A lot of it was indeed just me, and not handling the situation right. But I had no one to go to! lol. Craziness.
It was stupid, I know, and so immature, for me to just leave.... let's just say it was pretty bad and more of an "employee" issue - not a resident issue at all. I'm humiliated by acting so hastily, but what's done is done. My Supervisor (I guess she was my supervisor... technically... see - that's what I'm talking about. I wasn't able to discuss the position, etc, and many important things and didn't fill out any paperwork..nothing).
Then, when she was ready for me, I was in the middle of handing out beverages in the dining room. After I did that, I went to her office and no one was there. That's when people said she left. She didn't even tell me. I just felt so "lost", and the CNA I was observing seemed put out because I had to ask questions, and I understand that - training is never fun, but what the heck? It was crazy. I know it will take several weeks to get used to wherever I end up working, but it was like I was a "burden" rather than anyone being glad I was there to help. And on top of that, first thing yesterday morning (my 1st day, remember) a lady asked my name, etc, and said "Oh, we just had a girl quit with the same first name"... omg. yes. But then she quickly said "Oh.. but she moved". Yeah, right. So that wasn't a good thing to hear my first day. lol.
I am a very easy going person. I get along with all personalities. I have never in my life acted that way, and just left any place of employment. It was wrong, and I wrote a very professional (as professional as you can get in this situation) letter and emailed it last night. The lady (RN or LVN... I have no clue) who I spoke with most on the phone before my first day left me a voicemail on my cell phone yesterday saying that I could be reported with "abandonment" for doing that. She wasn't really rude, but it scared me. I had no patients assigned to me. Not until Monday when orientation was going to be over.
Anyway, I know some of this sounds so immature and stupid - and some of it is, but it's not who I usually am, and this was just a very odd situation/day that within 3 hours had me out the door. I had no guidance. Not that I can't do anything, that's not what I mean. It was like they were all bummed out that I didn't have any experience at all yet, and one girl made the comment "they gave me a big-time rookie". She said it in front of me, but was talking to someone else, and she meant it in good fun - to a certain extent, but I could tell she was bummed about it. Now... I don't usually let things bother me, and I'm pretty thick-skinned. That's not what the issue was. It was like I was invisible, and they didn't need my help, and when I helped with certain things, it wasn't how "she" did it, and I slowed her down, etc...
I know everyone develops their routine, and everything, but it wasn't like I was asking tons of questions. And the few I did have she shook her head and acted like I should know everything about that place that she knew. But she wasn't rude to me. She was nice for the most part.
It was a combination of feeling like a burden, having no real first-day "orientation" where I could ask my questions about the job and facility, my schedule, etc. I was just left to follow the CNA for 3 hrs and handed out drinks at dinner time. Then, I go to report to my supervisor for the paperwork, etc, and she's gone! I thought she worked until the end of my shift, because she was there (somewhere) during the time I was there, and left at an odd time. Possibly overtime, I don't know. But I should have known something! Good grief! Not that she had to report to me, but my gosh - I was so confused and just had a bad feeling about the place. Nice place, but looks can be deceiving, I guess. Again, it's not that the people were rude to my face. It's just like I was in the way, and I had no idea why I was even there. That was the main issue. That, and my supervisor "abandoning" ME, and not giving me any clue whatsoever about anything. lol.
Feel free to give more advice on this...thank you to those who already have. It's too complicated to really explain, and what I did mention isn't all that happened, and I've mentioned quite a bit. Despite this first experience, I love what I do, and look forward to my future in nursing. : )